We don’t know what caused Mason to have autism. I honestly can’t look back on any one medication, vaccine, food, product, toxin, etc. and think to myself, “That’s it! That’s what made Mason’s brain develop differently!” Sometimes I wish I knew the exact cause. Sometimes I couldn’t care less about what caused it. Sometimes I don’t even know what to think—and that’s honestly how I feel most of the time.

There’s only one reason why I wish I knew what caused Mason to have autism. You see, not only is he a uniquely amazing little boy, he’s also a big brother to Matthew. Matthew will be one year old next month and I’d be lying to you if I said the thought didn’t cross my mind daily about whether or not he has autism, too. Now that I know the red flags of autism, I can’t help but analyze Matthew’s every move and wonder if whatever changed Mason’s brain will also change Matthew’s. This sweet boy was born into an autism family and everything we know about parenting thus far revolves around autism. Part of me is intrigued by the thought of raising a neurotypical child and what that might be like. The other part of me imagines what life would be like raising two autistic boys. One thing is for sure—we’re up for either challenge, no matter which becomes our reality.

Only time will tell what God has in store for Matthew. Until then, we wait and love our boys like there is no tomorrow. #masonandme #autismacceptance #autismsiblings ❤️💙💛💚